Feeling a Freak Out Coming

I feel dizzy. All the time almost. I think it's the stress, of everything. I feel blind and suddenly, I see. Then I'm dizzy. What have I done wrong? Why can I not see what's in front of me. I love and trust to a fault.If on;y I can be a good wife, it will all be ok, right? It's moments like this that I really don't know. I don't have confidence in us because I don't feel confidence in you. But I'm responsible for leading my heart, not following it. But is itstupid or wrong to stay like this??