Resaons We Appreciate Our Mom- Freewriting

There are so many reasons why I appreciate my mom. Right now, we aren't getting along the best. I have hurt her because of a decision I have made and she's afraid for me. Afraid I'm making the wrong decision and will be hurt. Afraid I will be wrong and she will have to step up and help me pick up those pieces. I appreciate that she has boundary problems...I admit, an odd thing to value but it means she loves overly much. So much that she can't contain her love in boundaries, so much that she would rather hurt and be afraid than be alone. My mom is so much like me. Or I guess I'm so much like her. I can't seem to have boundaries either. She is so great, loving and open. Not in words necessarily, but facial expressions and in silence. Maybe I can read her silence because it is my silence too. I love to learn from my mom. She doesn't know that. I don't know why it is so hard to say things like that to her. She has such great expectations for us. I know she loves my kids. She has so much fun as a grandma and I love that. And wow! I have to say I respect how she loves my dad. She never picks where they eat because it's not important to her and she knows it is important to him. She loves him very well. He was diagnosed with prostate cancer in May and I know she's afraid but she's just turned that into helpfulness. Researching options and going to and from doctor's appointments. My dad is a very lucky man.