Things I Never Want to Forget- Freewriting

Wow, there are so many things I could write here. I never want to forget how much each of my babies weighed when they were born. I never want to forget what it was like to hold and rock and nurse my little girl(firstborn and 14 1/2mos old) the night before her brother was born. I never want to forget the way my husband rested his forehead on mine trying to gather the courage to kiss me for the first time. I never want to forget what it feels like to do hair for a living, the exhilaration and the always changing environment and tasks. I also never want to forget the way it feels when January rolls around and people have had their hair done for all the holidays in December and I get a $200 check for the month, not fun. I want to remember the way it feels to train for a 5k and complete it. I never want to forget what it feels like to play soccer or the feeling of the first swim of the summer. I never want to forget sitting in my grand parents' house, on the back of the sofa, brushing my grandmother's hair for hours. I never want to forget why I decided to have a midwife and all the evidence that led me to choose a home birth. I never want to forget why I transferred to the hospital with my last baby, never want to forget that I tried everything I could to do it the way we planned. I never want to forget that I am a beautiful woman to my husband. I never want to forget the way my kids look at me when I've done something they think is so cool right now. IIIIIIIIIIIIII I never want to forget my old dog, Amber. She was sweet and great and there for me when I needed her. I did not return the favor. I never want to forget that loving someone does not mean always being nice and not requiring anything of them. Sometimes it means you help them live up to or find their potential. Sometimes it means you leave them alone and stop trying to constantly develop them. I never want to forget that my kids are kids and they will mispronounce words and that is fine, and really darn cute too!